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10 days already passed in 2015 and I just having my time to try and summarize the bittersweet year that was 2014, carving out every thought, lessons learned, justifications for my mistakes in the most acceptable way. I’m not making this for anyone else but me, a way for me to self reflecting, to see what happened back then. So, this is my summary of 2014.  *** I live a busy life in 2014, like what was happened in 2013. But in different ways, its harder, because I lost most of my enjoyment in what I do than the past year. I do most of things because ‘I had to do them, I have to finish things I started’. I didn’t complain, but I felt tired most of time. I’m still the same girl who can do or say yes for things I doubt just because I pity people who asked me. Suck my Javanese blood. And 2014 taught me that no good would happen if this continued to happen. I lost my self in the middle of the commotion. I cheer myself most of time, telling myself that everything is worth it ...

Hello fellas! Meet my new babyyyyyyyyy! Wuhuuu. So excited like super seriously!  So, there she is, my new 8 months-old persian cat named Milo. Well she is not literally new, I adopted her from Ghufrani and I ended up super happy to have her by my side.  I always wanted to have a pet that can be stroked. I found it pleases me everytime I touched animal and the animal seems enjoying my touch. But when I told my parents to buy me a cat or hamster or rabbit or anything, they said that they cant trust me that I would treat them right. And yes, deep inside I agreed. I was younger back then, my emotions were unstable. So, my dream just burned like that. I never asked again. 17 December 2014, I told Ghufrani that I would adopt one of his cat (he has two persian cats). I dont know how and why I told him like that. The thought of adopting one of his cat was just crossed my mind when my mouth said that. I haven't said anything yet to my family. I just said that and Ghufra...

Ada jarak membentang yang memisah raga lalu kalbu Yang membuat waktu bertemu menjadi merdu Semerdu rapalan doa dalam setiap sujudmu Menyebut namaku lalu keselamatan dan kebahagiaanku Ada yang ingin aku patenkan dalam hatimu Hati yang meragukan artimu dalam benakku Yang selalu menyiksamu dalam rindu yang bisu Sebuah cinta tanpa batas ruang dan waktu Imukku permata hatiku, Selamat hari ibu.. Aku mencintaimu selalu :)

“Rambut gue baru!” Ucap Nira mengagetkanku. Itu adalah kalimat pertama yang meluncur dari bibirnya ketika dengan tiba-tiba gadis itu muncul di pintu kamarku dan langsung duduk di ranjangku begitu saja tanpa ada salam dan sapaan penanda kedatangannya. Sudah seperti kamarnya sendiri sepertinya. “Assalamu’alaikum kek, tata krama lo dimana woy?” tandasku sambil mendongakkan wajahku dari laptop yang sedari tadi aku tekuni. Ku telusuri setiap detail penampakannya dengan mataku. Ya, rambut panjangnya yang dulu kini tinggal sebahu. Sebuah keajaiban pasti sudah menginjeksi otaknya, atau mungkin ketidakwarasan. Seorang Nira yang aku kenal tidak akan merelakan mahkota kebanggaanya dipangkas begitu saja tanpa alasan pendukung yang kuat.

Its harder to maintain than to reach, people said. But they did much better than just to maintain. This heart is super proud to have them :)