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Halo 28! Saat aku menuliskan tulisan ini, langit hitam sedang bergemuruh menemani derasnya hujan yang membasahi Jogjaku. Pandemi omicron sedang merajalela. Vladimir Putin sedang dicerca habis-habisan karena aksinya mengobrak-abrik Ukraina. Aku baik-baik saja. Setelah kurang lebih dua minggu kujalani di rumah saja. Menikmati kehidupan yang sederhana. 10 hari dikurung pandemi, sementara hari lainnya, pencernaanku menjerit minta perhatian. Tidak masalah. Tuhan punya caranya untuk mengijabah doa-doa umatnya. Aku pernah mengkhayalkan mengambil cuti seminggu full dan merayakan pergantian usia dengan bangun siang. Lalu Tuhan benar-benar mengizinkannya. Aku benar-benar diberi waktu luar biasa banyak untuk beristirahat dan bangun siang. Hanya saja, tanpa manusia-manusia yang kuharapkan ada di hari spesialku. Waktu sudah berganti, tapi hatiku masih di tahun-tahun kemarin. Gegap gemerlap riuh canda tawa dan bombardir cinta di segala media, itu yang biasa aku dapatkan di tanggal 2 Maret...

The truth is I’ve been wanting to write this since the end of December 2021, but here I am with all the excuses in the world to validate why I just hit my keyboard today. 2021 was something. This is what happen when I didn't really know what I had wished for. And when that wish comes true, my life gone upside down.  It begins with something so unpredictable and causes some emotional turmoil but at the end of the day, I survived. I cried. A lot. It was not an easy situation. A situation that shattered my way of thinking and the principles that I had always held high. It leads me to make insanely stupid baseless decision, with no purpose. Thank God for getting me back on the right path.  I always love how God takes care of me. I surrounded by great and nice people that want nothing from me except my happiness. In the darkest side of a tunnel, slightest light shines brighter. And that’s what these people means to me. They are just there. Lending me their shoulders to cry on. Comf...