[Life] 2021 in Recap

The truth is I’ve been wanting to write this since the end of December 2021, but here I am with all the excuses in the world to validate why I just hit my keyboard today.

2021 was something. This is what happen when I didn't really know what I had wished for. And when that wish comes true, my life gone upside down. 

It begins with something so unpredictable and causes some emotional turmoil but at the end of the day, I survived. I cried. A lot. It was not an easy situation. A situation that shattered my way of thinking and the principles that I had always held high. It leads me to make insanely stupid baseless decision, with no purpose. Thank God for getting me back on the right path. 

I always love how God takes care of me. I surrounded by great and nice people that want nothing from me except my happiness. In the darkest side of a tunnel, slightest light shines brighter. And that’s what these people means to me. They are just there. Lending me their shoulders to cry on. Comforts me with warm words. That’s more than enough. 

I was gone for an escape. 2 months escape (which drained my savings, off course 😂 ) but it was worth it. I am back, starting a new and being a very fresh Finta with a brand new purpose. I no longer in that dark tunnel. I made peace. I made adjustment. I forgive. I smile. I decided to own my universe and refuse to lose. 

And when I shift my mind and be the master of my life, everything changes. My life back in shape. 

With the help of my inner circle, I started exercising. Swimming 3 times a week. Zumba once a week. I also tried yoga but gave up after the first excruciating practice. And the result is my digestions getting better and my period is now not so hurtful anymore. I also learning to mind my intake. Thankfully, my family member addition result to everyday healthy drinks and ready-to-eat fruits. With confidence I can say that I’m living healthier life in 2021. 

Just like the previous year, I finished a lot of books (YEAY!!) but didn’t write one. My writing was also rejected by several publishers. I was sad, its normal but somehow, I don’t feel fail at all but I know I need to do better. 

I made friends with new people. Hello and goodbye that I’ve handled better more than ever. Some smiles trapped me but I managed to get back on my knees. I understand better that some “hello” were just a game (even a mind game), and I don’t have time for games anymore. Being happy for what I am and settled for my purpose, work for it, living life as it’s the most precious chance God gave me, I think that’s more important. 

When I have God and I can grip on myself, then everything should be fine. 

Since this world is not only revolves around me, I know better to accept my surroundings and what’s happen to them were also should come to my consideration without being so selfless or selfish. 

This year ended with a big smile, surrounded by people I love, things I love to do and quite nervous about my financial status cause 2021 I spend TOO MUCH money in the name of self-love (and YOLO).

And that’s that. For a recap, I’m happy to be this Finta because I know I’ve grown up so much since 2020. Allah Yang Maha Kreatif, always have a way to test me and to make me a better person. But whatever His plan for me, I know its for the best.

I think, I got my lesson in 2021. Please, Allah, give me a nice 2022 💗