Cerita dan Kata-Kata

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I told my self “how to face the day with my own way” Than a voice in the outsides said, “with a perfection …” I wanna talk about perfection. I have one simple question to be answered “WHY WE HAVE TO DO ANYTHING WITH A PERFECTION??” maybe some of you will say “absolutelly!!” or anything that sign a pro oppinion. But for me, I will say “no, we havent” Pernah ga sih kalian semua mikir kalo hidup dalam suatu kesempurnaan itu menyakitkan? Atau emang Cuma aku aja yang have oppinion like this? When anybody show me a right way to move on, I really know that it is “Right” for me. They just want the best for me to life on this “unright” period, but the mistake is these intructions or what so ever its not my style. That’s not my way. That’s not me. And for all the high expectation to me to be perfect, fyi that’s killing me. Its like you put a very big rock on to my back. And I will fall because my unstrong body cant hold up it weight. Than, if my tears falling down from my eyes, do...

The way u told me ur very secret . . The way u trust me to listen to ur story . . The way u making me melted with ur cool minds . . The way u be your self in this crazy period . . The way u answered all my question . . The way u called me ‘Nduk’ that making me feel so speciall . . Don’t u ever think boy, u making ur part on my diary . . U making ur part on my head And making ur part on my heart . . And don’t u know . . The way u making me wake from my sleep . . The way u walk on my darkness . . The way ur effort to make me fly in the right sky . . The way u realized me about our distance . . The way u realized me about our differents . . The way u destroyed all my dreams . . That’s realized me that our memories are nothing . . And Im nothing but ur junior Im nothing but a stupid girl who are in the lowest level on your perfect life. No problems boy, Before ur charmness freze my head, I’ll kill this thought Before it is too late to be stopped, I’ll kill this fe...